Occasionally, I get something stuck in my head. Here's my way of getting it out . . .
For some reason, I've been thinking a lot about honestly lately. You know, I think that's one thing that we, as Christians, do really badly. Oh, sure, we won't tell a lie; in fact, we probably don't even know we're being dishonest. What exactly am I talking about? Well, I'm talking about how, every Sunday and Wednesday night at church, we talk about the "ideal Christian." We reference him in every referral to the Christian life. We act like that's where we all should be, and, if you aren't, the unspoken question is, "What's wrong with you?!" Well, maybe you have made it here. If you have, you should probably just stop reading right now, as this won't really make any sense to you. I personally come from a long past of not being there, and every day is a struggle for perfection. It doesn't matter how hard I try, or how long I pray; I will never be that ideal Christian. Sure, I know all the theory and theology, but there's too much messiness and stubbornness in my heart to get it right. It's sort'a like some of those crazy ideas you had as a kid. You thought sure they would work, but, when you actually tried them, you usually ended up with a sore something; whether it was your pride or your backside.
When reality hits the dream, you'll start to realize that being this Christian is impossible. However, I don't think that means that we have to give up in despair. After all, if it was possible to be this Christian, would you even want to be? Being a Christian is about being on a journey. It's about a world of pain and unhappy endings. It's about a battle. So, may I suggest to you that next time you start feeling guilty for not being the ideal Christian, you remember that you may be exactly where God wants you to be. It's awesome to want to be more like Jesus, but don't get too caught up in that. Just be honest with yourself and others about where you are, and don't get so preoccupied with becoming a better Christian that you forget to enjoy the view right where you are.